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Watched on Thursday November 21, 2024.

guadagnino trades in heat and desire, but here it’s all unresolved. there’s no catharsis. no transcendence. just longing folding in on itself. the camera lingers like lee does — too long, too close, too exposed. the film stages desire as absence, in the way lee wants to possess what he cannot even name.

lee isn’t in love with eugene; he’s haunted by him. not the person, but the idea. the possibility. the unattainable object that keeps his desire alive. it’s obsessive, humiliating, and deeply human.

watching queer felt like watching someone disintegrate in slow motion. it’s not easy. but it’s honest in its own bleak way. a film about unreciprocated obsession, melancholic attachment, and what happens when desire tangled with addiction becomes the only thing holding one together — and then even that gives out.

i also have been thinking about how guadagnino stages the psychedelic experience — not as spectacle, but as fragmentation. time slips. perception distorts, but nothing resolves. it’s not transcendence, it’s disincarnation. the trip doesn’t open new worlds; it rather mirrors the one he’s already trapped in.

sorelle?? SORELLE???😭

Watched on Friday February 25, 2022.

Watched on Sunday January 8, 2023.

that’s not how you medit-

Watched on Tuesday April 26, 2022.