His addiction wasn’t really to drugs it was to the inability to find joy in life. Once you truly wish to escape life, you can never fully recover. Every time you say, “I’m better now,” somehow you fall back into that darkness. Everyone who loves you falls apart, and seeing them suffer makes you feel even worse. You cry, you apologize. At some point, you realize you can’t break out of this cycle, and you start to crave an end.…
